Theres no place like home?

I won a trip through work. Its either going to NY, Vegas , San Fran or
Orlando. I don't want to go to NYC. I still have a feeling like its going
to see a wounded city. A hard scar on Americas face. Its ground zero for
the war and all the sh!t that we are involved in the world. Iraq, Iran,
Afghanistan, the fall of the dollar, 3000+ soldiers dead, WMDs and a
general loss of the shine that America once had. Its almost like visiting a
terminal cancer patient. You wish them the best but you know that its just
keeping them comfortable until the end. I think I'm both angry and scared
about wanting to visit New York. I won't blame you if it does not make
sense sometimes feelings don't.
Visiting Vegas is like visiting a dirty whore. Its all shiny and crowded
but its all there to take all of your money. Shows , gambling, drinks, the
place exists for fun and to empty your bank accounts. I know I would have a
great time there, I have in the past. The lights the girls the money and
sounds of the casinos. If only the sun never came up.... I have friends
that live there as well. They would be nice to visit.
Orlando.....A nice place for the kids, but they are not coming. I don't
want to see the mouse or shamoo. I would not mind gator world and stuff
like that but what else is there????
San Fran??? Alcatraz, sourdough bread, Golden Gate, Lombard street, Haight
Ashbury (dirty hippys!!), The Pacific Ocean. I have friends there as well
who would love to show me around. I know I could visit wineries and some
killer brew houses. Even the gay districts would make fun people watching.
The company used to send people to Mexico they changed that as the company
grew. That would have been fun too. A girl friend of mine said she would
F*(k me if I took her to Mexico. Bad bad bad. She knew the bad thoughts
would stay in my head.... Bad dirty thoughts. She knows how to play it when
she wants to. Its nice to fantasize about it. The could have and would
haves and should have beens. About 12 years ago we used to hang out alot
and I asked her out. She declined the offer....but we remained good
friends.
What to do and where to go?