Saturday, February 27, 2010

funeral for a friend

I went last night to the wake and it was just filled with what i didn't like, people from my home town.  I saw my school mate in the casket and even though he was dead and I have not seen him in the better part of 20+ years , I could still see the child in his face. I could see the kid I grew up with. The boy that we played softball in the alley with. The kid who we had snuck beers in to the 8th grade dance. The kid who was not dead.
    His face looked bloated and his hands looked stiff. My Uncles hands had looked the same way. I guess the hands of the dead look that way. 
   Again I had too many zombie thought floating through my head as I went up to the casket to say good bye.
  No one wants to go to a wake, buts its a responsibility that we all eventuality have to do. To show respect for the living.
 

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Nick C. 2010

As I turn older I see my own responsibilities grow. This is one that I hate, I have to attend a wake later today. It is for a friend from grade school that I have not scene since .... 1989 or before? His death could have been mine I suppose. Nick had died from liver failure and a life filled with severe drug and alcohol problems. I remember him as a nice enough guy a touch wild on the edges. I had tipped a few beers with him.
 I started drinking in seventh grade, by sneeking one of dads beers I also started to smoke then too. I smoked pot in 7th grade with a group of kids and their older brothers. It was a fun ride through high school. Typical stoner life, drinkin smoking and listening to metal. I experimented with LSD and PCP in Highschool as well and I also tried cocaine once or twice. - I wanted to be high. I loved that off world feeling and the "not being in my own skin' sensation.
 By my first year in college I stopped smoking pot and just drank good beers. I would have a puff or two when offered , but the need for it had waned. I had found something that I was looking for - I had found friends and I think I had found the strength to be comfortable in my own skin.
Well as I grow older I have to do this more and more. As you grow older life stops giving you things and starts taking them away.

 

Friday, February 19, 2010

typical day

  • 5:20 am get up, put on pants , downstairs , make coffee, let dogs out, start wife's car, wait, watch Tv news, wave good bye, go to bed
  • 5:50 am answer phone/text, sleep
  • 7:30 am wake up, make breakfast for kids, feed dogs and fish, drink coffee, more news, tell kids to get dressed, make lunch, sign homework, wave goodbye
  • 9:00 am watch supernatural, make lunch
  • 10:00 am shit , shower, shave
  • 11:00 am work: sell/buy/ call / follow up/ research
  • 3:00 pm Lunch
  • 4:00 pm gossip/sell /buy/research/email/kill time/ follow up
  • 8:30 pm go home/store
  • 9:00 pm eat dinner alone
  • 10:00 pm put on sleep clothes/dogs/dishes/laundry/tv-family guy-king of the hill-dirty jobs-mythbusters-bad movie/news/pick up toys
  • 11:00 pm read
  • 12:00 pm sleep
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This is a typical day for me. Not as exciting as I though it would be when I was a kid.....
 

Saturday, February 13, 2010

Friday, February 05, 2010

I had a dream...


I used to have vivid dreams all the time. In fact I used to write down my dreams in a book for over 2 years. Some were fantastic and some quite droll.... Last night I had a dream that I was climbing the framework of a steel roler coster. A co-worker of mine was on the ground and guiding me up "move left, now right...". I looked down and I saw that my uncle was holding the ladder... My uncle has been dead for 9 years now. It was good to see him and I did not think any thing of it at the time. It just seemed natural.... He was slightly heaver than I remembered and was wearing a shirt from Shell gasoline.....
   I'm glad I'm dreaming again.

Tuesday, February 02, 2010

: JR's hotdogs in Oak Lawn


95th and Ridgeland.... some damn fine dogs... look at the symmetry in the cucumber and tomatoes ....

82 Academy Awards

 82nd annual Academy Award nominations

Best Picture: "Avatar," "The Blind Side," "District 9," "An Education," "The Hurt Locker," "Inglourious Basterds," "Precious: Based on the Novel 'Push' by Sapphire," "A Serious Man," "Up," "Up in the Air."

Actor: Jeff Bridges, "Crazy Heart"; George Clooney, "Up in the Air"; Colin Firth, "A Single Man"; Morgan Freeman, "Invictus"; Jeremy Renner, "The Hurt Locker."

Actress: Sandra Bullock, "The Blind Side"; Helen Mirren, "The Last Station"; Carey Mulligan, "An Education"; Gabourey Sidibe, "Precious: Based on the Novel 'Push' by Sapphire"; Meryl Streep, "Julie & Julia."

Supporting Actor: Matt Damon, "Invictus"; Woody Harrelson, "The Messenger"; Christopher Plummer, "The Last Station"; Stanley Tucci, "The Lovely Bones"; Christoph Waltz, "Inglourious Basterds."

Supporting Actress: Penelope Cruz, "Nine"; Vera Farmiga, "Up in the Air"; Maggie Gyllenhaal, "Crazy Heart"; Anna Kendrick, "Up in the Air"; Mo'Nique, "Precious: Based on the Novel 'Push' by Sapphire."

Directing: James Cameron, "Avatar"; Kathryn Bigelow, "The Hurt Locker"; Quentin Tarantino, "Inglourious Basterds"; Lee Daniels, "Precious: Based on the Novel 'Push' by Sapphire"; Jason Reitman, "Up in the Air."

Foreign Language Film: "Ajami," Israel; "El Secreto de Sus Ojos," Argentina; "The Milk of Sorrow," Peru; "Un Prophete," France; "The White Ribbon," Germany.

Adapted Screenplay: Neill Blomkamp and Terri Tatchell, "District 9"; Nick Hornby, "An Education"; Jesse Armstrong, Simon Blackwell, Armando Iannucci, Tony Roche, "In the Loop"; Geoffrey Fletcher, "Precious: Based on the Novel 'Push' by Sapphire"; Jason Reitman and Sheldon Turner, "Up in the Air."

Original Screenplay: Mark Boal, "The Hurt Locker"; Quentin Tarantino, "Inglourious Basterds"; Alessandro Camon and Oren Moverman, "The Messenger"; Joel Coen and Ethan Coen, "A Serious Man"; Bob Peterson, Pete Docter, Tom McCarthy, "Up."

Animated Feature Film: "Coraline"; "Fantastic Mr. Fox"; "The Princess and the Frog"; "The Secret of Kells"; "Up."Art Direction: "Avatar," "The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus," "Nine," "Sherlock Holmes," "The Young Victoria."

Cinematography: "Avatar," "Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince," "The Hurt Locker," "Inglourious Basterds," "The White Ribbon."

Sound Mixing: "Avatar," "The Hurt Locker," "Inglourious Basterds," "Star Trek," "Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen."

Sound Editing: "Avatar," "The Hurt Locker," "Inglourious Basterds," "Star Trek," "Up."

Original Score: "Avatar," James Horner; "Fantastic Mr. Fox," Alexandre Desplat; "The Hurt Locker," Marco Beltrami and Buck Sanders; "Sherlock Holmes," Hans Zimmer; "Up," Michael Giacchino.

Original Song: "Almost There" from "The Princess and the Frog," Randy Newman; "Down in New Orleans" from "The Princess and the Frog," Randy Newman; "Loin de Paname" from "Paris 36," Reinhardt Wagner and Frank Thomas; "Take It All" from "Nine," Maury Yeston; "The Weary Kind (Theme from Crazy Heart)" from "Crazy Heart," Ryan Bingham and T Bone Burnett.

Costume: "Bright Star," "Coco Before Chanel," "The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus," "Nine," "The Young Victoria."

Documentary Feature: "Burma VJ," "The Cove," "Food, Inc." "The Most Dangerous Man in America: Daniel Ellsberg and the Pentagon Papers," "Which Way Home."

Documentary (short subject): "China's Unnatural Disaster: The Tears of Sichuan Province," "The Last Campaign of Governor Booth Gardner," "The Last Truck: Closing of a GM Plant," "Music by Prudence," "Rabbit a la Berlin."

Film Editing: "Avatar," "District 9," "The Hurt Locker," "Inglourious Basterds," "Precious: Based on the Novel 'Push' by Sapphire."

Makeup: "Il Divo," "Star Trek," "The Young Victoria."

Animated Short Film: "French Roast," "Granny O'Grimm's Sleeping Beauty," "The Lady and the Reaper (La Dama y la Muerte)," "Logorama," "A Matter of Loaf and Death."

Live Action Short Film: "The Door," "Instead of Abracadabra," "Kavi," "Miracle Fish," "The New Tenants."

Visual Effects: "Avatar," "District 9," "Star Trek."

— The Associated Press



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