Wednesday, March 10, 2010

post Oscar awards



I usually watch the Awards every year. This year I got caught up in watching Daybreakers. It was a dog of a vampire movie, but entertaining.  I did catch the last hour or so of the Awards. I saw the actor, actress and movie it self. I cant say that I agree with Sandra as the best actress, but I do agree with director and movie.
   What separates me from most of the peolpe at work is they do not understand the difference between a good movie and entertaining movie. One guy was raving about Avatar not winning. I sat him down and explained that Avatar had great effect, but it was a hollow movie. Its a repeated story from ferngully, Pocahontas, matrix and dances with wolves. Then he ranted about star trek beating it with make up, I then explained that 90% of avatar was CGI, not make up in the real sense.
   While The Hurt locker was not a widely seen movie on a subject that is not well liked , it was the best movie for that year.
There is a difference between enjoyed and good.
 

Wednesday, March 03, 2010

I want to ..... 2010

  • lose weight
  • learn something new
  • read more
  • watch more movies
  • learn a third language
  • dig that damn stump out of my yard
  • re-start the motorcycle
  • make a feast for my friends
  • go out on a bender
  • see more of my friends
  • spend more time with my kids
  • go camping
  • more fishing
  • brew some beer
  • ride my bicycle more - 200-300 miles
  • make my own wooden arrows
  • learn how to make a longbow
  • just take a day and sit without noise
  • a new tattoo
  • spend more time w/ the church
  • get healthier
  • take a few ME days off
  • grill more in the summer
  • get through life without hurting any one
  • take the kids to a SOX game
  • more vegetables
  • learn to relish alone time
  • go shoot more (bow)
  • get a FOID card
  • buy a shotgun/muzzleloader/lever action rifle
  • go hunting
  • make costumes for the kids
  • be comfortable in my own skin
  • connect with old friends
  • go on a trip/actually take vacation time
  • write more
  • kill a hobo with my bare hands
These are in no particular order or need to do any, but  off the top of my head things that I would like to do in the upcoming year.
Peace

inner voice.

     I have to learn to keep my inside voice quiet. Its that or my inside voice is louder than most peoples regular voice. -- A day or so at work I saw this girl and her mom. They were both very good looking, mom was a few years older than me and daughter was about 26. She had a certain quality about her that I find irresistible. She was smart, funny, she wore these small framed lisa loeb glasses, dark shoulder length hair and was just a touch thick on her bottom. Not fat but a real woman, with hips and tits. I rounded a corner to go do something that I needed and I must have said out loud... "I'd snuggle in her ass". A co worker heard me say something, but was not sure what I had said. I know she heard the word ass , but I guessing not the full phrase. That would have been embarassing. How do you control your inside voice? Its one of the few things that belong only to you and you alone.
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      I few weeks ago I has to sit and watch out internet office. Its where we field calls and emails for my company. I guy there was giving me a hard time about this and that. I heard him start to choke as he sat behind me at a near by desk. Without thinking I yelled out "hey you done deep throating your John yet?"  He was shocked , but I think I had put him in hims place for giving out shit. I forget on how raw I can be when I feel like it..... I guess he did not expect it out of me at work.

Saturday, February 27, 2010

funeral for a friend

I went last night to the wake and it was just filled with what i didn't like, people from my home town.  I saw my school mate in the casket and even though he was dead and I have not seen him in the better part of 20+ years , I could still see the child in his face. I could see the kid I grew up with. The boy that we played softball in the alley with. The kid who we had snuck beers in to the 8th grade dance. The kid who was not dead.
    His face looked bloated and his hands looked stiff. My Uncles hands had looked the same way. I guess the hands of the dead look that way. 
   Again I had too many zombie thought floating through my head as I went up to the casket to say good bye.
  No one wants to go to a wake, buts its a responsibility that we all eventuality have to do. To show respect for the living.
 

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Nick C. 2010

As I turn older I see my own responsibilities grow. This is one that I hate, I have to attend a wake later today. It is for a friend from grade school that I have not scene since .... 1989 or before? His death could have been mine I suppose. Nick had died from liver failure and a life filled with severe drug and alcohol problems. I remember him as a nice enough guy a touch wild on the edges. I had tipped a few beers with him.
 I started drinking in seventh grade, by sneeking one of dads beers I also started to smoke then too. I smoked pot in 7th grade with a group of kids and their older brothers. It was a fun ride through high school. Typical stoner life, drinkin smoking and listening to metal. I experimented with LSD and PCP in Highschool as well and I also tried cocaine once or twice. - I wanted to be high. I loved that off world feeling and the "not being in my own skin' sensation.
 By my first year in college I stopped smoking pot and just drank good beers. I would have a puff or two when offered , but the need for it had waned. I had found something that I was looking for - I had found friends and I think I had found the strength to be comfortable in my own skin.
Well as I grow older I have to do this more and more. As you grow older life stops giving you things and starts taking them away.

 

Friday, February 19, 2010

typical day

  • 5:20 am get up, put on pants , downstairs , make coffee, let dogs out, start wife's car, wait, watch Tv news, wave good bye, go to bed
  • 5:50 am answer phone/text, sleep
  • 7:30 am wake up, make breakfast for kids, feed dogs and fish, drink coffee, more news, tell kids to get dressed, make lunch, sign homework, wave goodbye
  • 9:00 am watch supernatural, make lunch
  • 10:00 am shit , shower, shave
  • 11:00 am work: sell/buy/ call / follow up/ research
  • 3:00 pm Lunch
  • 4:00 pm gossip/sell /buy/research/email/kill time/ follow up
  • 8:30 pm go home/store
  • 9:00 pm eat dinner alone
  • 10:00 pm put on sleep clothes/dogs/dishes/laundry/tv-family guy-king of the hill-dirty jobs-mythbusters-bad movie/news/pick up toys
  • 11:00 pm read
  • 12:00 pm sleep
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This is a typical day for me. Not as exciting as I though it would be when I was a kid.....
 

Saturday, February 13, 2010

Friday, February 05, 2010

I had a dream...


I used to have vivid dreams all the time. In fact I used to write down my dreams in a book for over 2 years. Some were fantastic and some quite droll.... Last night I had a dream that I was climbing the framework of a steel roler coster. A co-worker of mine was on the ground and guiding me up "move left, now right...". I looked down and I saw that my uncle was holding the ladder... My uncle has been dead for 9 years now. It was good to see him and I did not think any thing of it at the time. It just seemed natural.... He was slightly heaver than I remembered and was wearing a shirt from Shell gasoline.....
   I'm glad I'm dreaming again.

Tuesday, February 02, 2010

: JR's hotdogs in Oak Lawn


95th and Ridgeland.... some damn fine dogs... look at the symmetry in the cucumber and tomatoes ....

82 Academy Awards

 82nd annual Academy Award nominations

Best Picture: "Avatar," "The Blind Side," "District 9," "An Education," "The Hurt Locker," "Inglourious Basterds," "Precious: Based on the Novel 'Push' by Sapphire," "A Serious Man," "Up," "Up in the Air."

Actor: Jeff Bridges, "Crazy Heart"; George Clooney, "Up in the Air"; Colin Firth, "A Single Man"; Morgan Freeman, "Invictus"; Jeremy Renner, "The Hurt Locker."

Actress: Sandra Bullock, "The Blind Side"; Helen Mirren, "The Last Station"; Carey Mulligan, "An Education"; Gabourey Sidibe, "Precious: Based on the Novel 'Push' by Sapphire"; Meryl Streep, "Julie & Julia."

Supporting Actor: Matt Damon, "Invictus"; Woody Harrelson, "The Messenger"; Christopher Plummer, "The Last Station"; Stanley Tucci, "The Lovely Bones"; Christoph Waltz, "Inglourious Basterds."

Supporting Actress: Penelope Cruz, "Nine"; Vera Farmiga, "Up in the Air"; Maggie Gyllenhaal, "Crazy Heart"; Anna Kendrick, "Up in the Air"; Mo'Nique, "Precious: Based on the Novel 'Push' by Sapphire."

Directing: James Cameron, "Avatar"; Kathryn Bigelow, "The Hurt Locker"; Quentin Tarantino, "Inglourious Basterds"; Lee Daniels, "Precious: Based on the Novel 'Push' by Sapphire"; Jason Reitman, "Up in the Air."

Foreign Language Film: "Ajami," Israel; "El Secreto de Sus Ojos," Argentina; "The Milk of Sorrow," Peru; "Un Prophete," France; "The White Ribbon," Germany.

Adapted Screenplay: Neill Blomkamp and Terri Tatchell, "District 9"; Nick Hornby, "An Education"; Jesse Armstrong, Simon Blackwell, Armando Iannucci, Tony Roche, "In the Loop"; Geoffrey Fletcher, "Precious: Based on the Novel 'Push' by Sapphire"; Jason Reitman and Sheldon Turner, "Up in the Air."

Original Screenplay: Mark Boal, "The Hurt Locker"; Quentin Tarantino, "Inglourious Basterds"; Alessandro Camon and Oren Moverman, "The Messenger"; Joel Coen and Ethan Coen, "A Serious Man"; Bob Peterson, Pete Docter, Tom McCarthy, "Up."

Animated Feature Film: "Coraline"; "Fantastic Mr. Fox"; "The Princess and the Frog"; "The Secret of Kells"; "Up."Art Direction: "Avatar," "The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus," "Nine," "Sherlock Holmes," "The Young Victoria."

Cinematography: "Avatar," "Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince," "The Hurt Locker," "Inglourious Basterds," "The White Ribbon."

Sound Mixing: "Avatar," "The Hurt Locker," "Inglourious Basterds," "Star Trek," "Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen."

Sound Editing: "Avatar," "The Hurt Locker," "Inglourious Basterds," "Star Trek," "Up."

Original Score: "Avatar," James Horner; "Fantastic Mr. Fox," Alexandre Desplat; "The Hurt Locker," Marco Beltrami and Buck Sanders; "Sherlock Holmes," Hans Zimmer; "Up," Michael Giacchino.

Original Song: "Almost There" from "The Princess and the Frog," Randy Newman; "Down in New Orleans" from "The Princess and the Frog," Randy Newman; "Loin de Paname" from "Paris 36," Reinhardt Wagner and Frank Thomas; "Take It All" from "Nine," Maury Yeston; "The Weary Kind (Theme from Crazy Heart)" from "Crazy Heart," Ryan Bingham and T Bone Burnett.

Costume: "Bright Star," "Coco Before Chanel," "The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus," "Nine," "The Young Victoria."

Documentary Feature: "Burma VJ," "The Cove," "Food, Inc." "The Most Dangerous Man in America: Daniel Ellsberg and the Pentagon Papers," "Which Way Home."

Documentary (short subject): "China's Unnatural Disaster: The Tears of Sichuan Province," "The Last Campaign of Governor Booth Gardner," "The Last Truck: Closing of a GM Plant," "Music by Prudence," "Rabbit a la Berlin."

Film Editing: "Avatar," "District 9," "The Hurt Locker," "Inglourious Basterds," "Precious: Based on the Novel 'Push' by Sapphire."

Makeup: "Il Divo," "Star Trek," "The Young Victoria."

Animated Short Film: "French Roast," "Granny O'Grimm's Sleeping Beauty," "The Lady and the Reaper (La Dama y la Muerte)," "Logorama," "A Matter of Loaf and Death."

Live Action Short Film: "The Door," "Instead of Abracadabra," "Kavi," "Miracle Fish," "The New Tenants."

Visual Effects: "Avatar," "District 9," "Star Trek."

— The Associated Press



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