Dreams

   I really don't know what prompted the dream... I had a sex dream about a friend.  She and I have never been romantic , but we have been very close. We had dated - kinda here and there, but it just never clicked. I consider her a very dear friend. 

   We were in a log cabin style hotel in a Wisconsin dells area.. I cant say why or for how long but we were there.  This nude girl walked by - kinda skinny with nasty tattoos on her. My friend came by and said-- what do I think? She was wearing a silky black bra and panties... She is a curvy girl and filled them well.  I think that I was even stumpt in my own dream on her look....

 I woke up with a raging erection ... Granted I have wanted to have sex with her , but I think this was just too close to the could haves and would haves....

Kona - 5 years old

I had to put my second dog to sleep 2 weeks ago.... I don't really know what happened to her .  She had stopped eating all of a sudden. I guessed that one day or two days was ok. Like a stomach bug. She vomited up some grass and bile. On the fourth  day we took her in to the vet and had blood work done. They had given her some gel under the skin that is like vitamins and electrolytes.  The next day she drank some chicken broth, milk on the following days and then again nothing. She had dropped nearly 7 pounds quickly. She was not moving but in good spirits. She still stayed with the kids she still sat with me and she still smiled when called.  I made arrangements to have her put down. The vets had no clue even with blood work and x-rays showing nothing. The kids took her for one last walk that day. I ran her with a ball and quickly stopped as I could see her legs were hurting. I picked her up and could feel her bones.  We drove to the vet and she sat in my lap as they gave her the injections. I held her close as I cried. Her last feeling in this world were of being loved and held. She had really become such a part of my family that I still look for her through the morning my routine. Good-bye Kona - I'll always love her.

My monkey drives....

My monkey drives....

amc zombies : the walking dead

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--Garz

There are days when I could go back in time and kiss you just one more time........

My father is goiing to kill me....

ahhhh let me start out saying that my dad has nerver liked dr's or medications... This week he was working the the attic and must have scrapped his arm and developed a rather nasty infection. The kicker is that he tried to hide it from my mom to the point that my sister took him to the ER... It had developed in to celulitus and he is now in his third day of heavy antibiotics and pain meds.... the arm was swollen / red and hot to the touch ..... it could have developed in to somthing much worse rather quickly ..... I love him so much but this fear of dr's is going to kill him. He waits for somthing to get better and when he does go in its much worse.....

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Good news... After 5 days in hospital - Hes out and at home.... the swelling came down and the color in his arm is great ... I am so happy.....

country days

I went downstate for a long weekend to visit my in-laws. It really was great to see them. To watch them interact this the kids is really special.  They are reaching an age where things are diminishing for them. They are both 80+ years old and you can start to see the frailty creeping in on them. I'm just glad that my kids have gotten to spend time with them and to know them as people.  

     They live a more simple life than I do being out in the country. Every one waves as you pass by. Sure there are rednecks and goofs in general, but I still think there is potential out in the sticks..... I still believe that people out there are still good people.  I still think there is more respect for the older generation out there than here (near big cities).  I also think that the mind set is slightly more closed off ... think 1976-1986 -ish. , but there is so much influence on the media that the real world seeps in to country life as well. 

    Life moves on its own pace there. That is so lost now a days .....

feeling old

I found out this week that a high school friend of mine has gall bladder cancer. Its the second one of my childhood friends that are dying. The longer you live the more you have a chance of losing. Life gives you great things , but eventually it will take them back. -- Im 42 and feeling old. I look in to the mirror and don't see myself any more.  Joints, hands, back and neck all hurt if they are not moving. If I blink a week will go buy with out notice. I know that I will see more and more friends pass on as I live. Its not a good thing but just a fact of life....  --- its faux depression settling in on me today. I just need a few days off ... I'll do that this weekend...

guy talk

Its been a few months since I've seen my guy friends. My wife used to think we would just get together and drink, but truth be told we just become guys. Not dads or brothers, sons and work mate we just become guys. We'll fart , joke , eat food we're not supposed to and drink pop. Watch violent kung fu movies and talk about comic books. We'll gab once or twice about the wife or kids as a courtesy , but its guy talk. Computer bits, BBC TV , vampire move and chicks.... Ours own group will split a 12 pack of beer over 5 hours, but its the shit talking that I love... I'll never know how and  what girls talk about when alone in their groups, but I love being a guy...