faith???

It always happens this time of year near Easter. When The chrisitans come out to play. I have always kept my faith close to me and generally quiet. I have never loved the Roman Catholic Church so I became Lutheran when I turned 21. Thats when I evolved in to my faith. My Aunt once told me that God is like a child. "He " is still trying to learn everyting again so he lives through us and every thing in the universe. Every sensation from the pain of birth to a lovers simple touch needs to be learned again. Kinda weird that where I kinda am in religion at this moment. Not in to the Jesus right about now. To me hes just been a man nothing more nothing less. A great teacher but thats about it. I know Im just rambeling at this moment I'm just feeling kinda lost right now and the Church is not helping any. Now don't get me wrong I'm not anti chrisitan I just dont like it right now. Maybe its Pres Bush and the religious right i'm not digging on right now. Telling me what Should be in movies and books. WHat video games should be in Walmart or where they should be sold. Arrg kinda just pissed at the world for being stupid.. A couple of weeks ago I had a repete customer He made over $100K selling womans shoes at Norstrams (sp?) . His wife looked at me and said they pray every night to Jesus that he does not get any returns so he wont lose any money. I wanted to slap her. I lost all respect for this lilly white peice of shit sitting in my office. (dont get me wrong - I love all colors !!) I kinda chuckled when it came back that they could not finance a can of pop. In my office I have had people hug me when I sold them cars. That way they can go to school or drive to work. They were happy for that 2000 tarus w/ 45K miles that they know that runs. - People have screwed up sence of values. I need to meditate. Its been a good year since Ive been able to do that and refocus back to zero. Thats what I need to do. TAke a day and recenter. - Hey its late , Im tired and just needed to vent to no one in particular. -- Peace