Lost in thought?

I was asked if I was lost in thought by a friend and I responded with a
lie. I told her that I was ok. In truth I don't know if I am. My heads been
all over the place. Thought of family, kids birthdays,my sons school,
politics, church, my own health and the health of friends and in strange
way a kind of erie feeling of my own death(I'll get to that later) .
** The older you get the more complex the world seems to be. I guess I was
pineing about simpler times in my life. When friends were the only care and
perhaps what was at the movies. I guess I miss the feeling of that kind of
friend ship. Now it seems like every thing is much shorter..... The more
connected we are (cell phones , text, emails, etc the less connected we
really are with each other.
*** in the past few days I have had an erie feeling that I am going to
die. (no; no sucide!!). Something in the air maybe? I just can't pin it
down at all. Not a crazy dream, not a mental picture of any thing just a
crazy feeling. I don't know what to tell you buts its there. I'm not going
to panic like a Final Destination movie or any thing like that. Its not
depression. Its just a feeling. Maybe that why I have not been sleeping
well. Who knows. What ever it is I hope it passes soon.
Any ways Fall is here.... maybe not officially with the days but
PRO-FOOTBALL kicks off today and thats a good thing. Soon the leaves will
change color and I will be a slave to the yard to keep it free of any stray
ones. But I like to do that. --