Twilight.....

The Sunlight came in through the window. It was not too direct , a soft
glow that filtered in. I got up and let the dogs out and brewed my cup o
joe (double cream double sugar). I went out side in full bed head to grab
that paper. One of the dogs barked to be let back in; its still to early
for them. They ran back up it was way too early for them. The paper, a
smoke and a cup. Its funny when you realize that you have grown up. Its not
when I bought my house or had my kids it was when I can enjoy the quiet in
the morning. You spend your youth trying not to be like your father ,
mother, aunt, uncle but in some strange way you enjoy that you have a
little bit of them inside you. I grew up with out a father. He was in the
house but not involved in my life. He worked 3rd shift and slept in the day
time. I think also that because his English was not that great (or so he
thought) he shyed away from anything to do publicly. My Uncle was my father
figure to me. He took me fishing , in to the city or to a Sox game. He
taught me how to be a man. How to talk as an adult and to other adults. To
try to do what you say you will. In general how to be a stand up guy. My
father is now retired. I get to see him through a new set of eyes. I get to
see him how I wanted him to be for me. He's a really good grandfather. He
loves his boys. Sacrifices were made. Time kept moving and years go by.
Yes it true I am an adult but I don't want to lose my childhood wonder.
I still want to be a kid inside. I like reading comics and watching
cartoons on the television. I also like my coffee and smoke in the
morning.....
I guess it a balance game. Too much one side and your immature if you go
the other way and you become crottachy (sp?). Find your balance point and
stay near it.....