Tuesday, April 28, 2009

piggy piggy

Wow... It just wont end will it? I was watching the daily show and it made me laugh that they said that god just does not like us. Tsunami, earthquake , bad economy and now a new strain of swine flu. Why not just move it to the full on zombie plague....or is it like the STAND.... how about the new British TV special the Survivors.
Personally I'm now worried about the flu. In 1968 we had a pandemic called the hong Kong flue that killed about 1, 000,000 people. Before that the Spanish flu of 1918 killed many million more. So far the swine flu has a very low lethality. Flus and viri are measured by several factors; how they spread, how quickly and how lethal they are. For a brief second in the mid 1990's they feared that HIV would or could go airborne. That would be very bad....The new flu has a high transmission rate but if you treat it correctly. Rest, drink fluids, take some med etc. Use common sense - wash your hands........

Now this made me laugh......The Jews and Muslims want the name of this flu changed because it offends them to be associated with swine....Come on .... Enough is enough. .......

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

not just a headache...

The other day I felt as if I was going blind in my right eye. Its
usually an indicator that a migraine is about to happen. Stress? Weather?
Blood pressure? I hate when they happen; my vision collapses in to a tight
tunnel and fuzzy. The pressure starts and just does not stop. I'm some
cases I have started to slur my words.
Usually a good night of sleep in total darkness with 100% silence will
make it degenerate in to a tension headache. My Dr was amazed when I went
in for am update for a specific medication. Its not a pain reliever, but a
vasodialator. It opens up the veins to allow for better blood flow and
relieves internal pressure. I don't want a pain reliever. I can deal with
the pain. I need to keep a clear head with the kids at home. I think he was
impressed that I was avoiding a pain medication like ocy or vicodin from
him.
I grown scared that one day I will have a vein pop in my head. Its
what killed my uncle and I...I just have this fear that that will kill me
too. The loss of brain matter in that way is frightening. To lose who you
are in seconds in horrible. .....Maybe I'm just reading too much in to
another migraine...

Monday, April 13, 2009

Adult film star Marilyn Chambers dies at 56


---- From the AP....I will remove if asked.

Oh my God...I guess it happens to the people we watch on the TV as well.
Savanah, John Holmes and so many others.... At the very least they had
people worship their good looks when they were young. ....


BREAKING NEWS

updated 1 hour, 9 minutes ago
LOS ANGELES - A friend of adult film star Marilyn Chambers says the actress
has been found dead at her home in northern Los Angeles County.

Peggy McGinn says the 56-year-old Chambers was found by her 17-year-old
daughter Sunday night and the cause of death has not been determined.

Chambers starred in the 1972 film "Behind the Green Door," which was more
widely distributed and attracted a more mainstream audience than the usual
adult fare.


Chambers, whose given name was Marilyn Briggs, was once a model for Ivory
Snow. She was among the first porn superstars when the stag films of the
1940s through 1960s gave way to the more polished sex films of the 1970s.

Copyright 2009 The Associated Press.

Saturday, April 11, 2009

turn it down ....

some days I just want to be alone. Today was one of them. All I wanted was
to roll up in a big comforter and stay in bed. I'm tired of being tired.
Maybe get up and have a cup of coffee, watch the news and go back to bed
until the afternoon. wake up and have some Chinese food. Get back on the
sofa and perhaps nap until 3pm. Get up and then decide to catch a movie at
the cheep show. read a horror novel and go back to bed by 9 pm. Its not too
much to ask. Just a day with out having to interact with people.
I almost feel like the old guy from the twilight zone. All he wanted to
to be alone. The a nuke hits and he is alone with time to read, but with
anything there are prices to pay. His was that his thick glasses broke and
he could no longer read......
Maybe its just an overload of sounds from work, telephones, people,
machines with their constant whirring and of course the cars.... I just
want the one quiet day. Its to the point that I drive with out the radio
just to maintain a good noise level....
I know I whine about this about once or twice a year but that all I
really want is the the quiet. Maybe to roam a deserted beach with only the
sound of the sea to keep me company. Me and my internal monogouge....
Perhaps All I need to do is just learn to still my brain and turn the know
down to zero... to go all zen like and stop the internal noises.

Thursday, April 09, 2009

old toys and memories......


Marbles
wooden tops
pitching pennies
slingshots
cardboard sleds
skitching
Nerf football
tag
ghost in the grave yard
click clacks
burning ants with a magnifying glass
setting fire to army men
building models
being on a swing
climbing trees
pulling up rocks to find bugs
dropping leaves in running water
jumping ramps with your bikes
red light green light
Simon says
snowball fights
flying a kite
watching clouds
telling ghost stories
creature feature
peanut butter and jelly
kool aide (red)
popping caps with rocks
rhyming songs
greasy grimy gopher guts. chopped up monkey meat , ????
am radio
Schwinn stingrays w/ the banana seats
playing chess and checkers
Chinese checkers
hopscotch with number in to the 20's
war (card game)
uno
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I wanted to take 5 minutes put down a quick list of what I loved as a kid

Wednesday, April 08, 2009

daydreaming at work....

Wow I'm going on seven years here at work. Seven years. My last job I was there about a year + , the one before 5 + years. Some times I look at papers I put away for a some reason or another and I ask my self -"why did I hold on to that for?" What was so special about this note, scrap of paper, advertisement or coupon and why did I place it here?
I was going through my file cabinet here at work and pitched a stack of papers that I just don't need and I saved for some reason, but the reason is lost.

Sometime the brain acts in the same way. You sit, think and daydream when floods of old memories come in to you. An old birthday party, a visit to the zoo, a sandwich, a pretty smile, pop tops from beer cans, the old foil wrappers on ho hos, pumping gas in the rain, a gold bug shining in the sun, the taste of pencils, the way your dads hair smells, salt, an old commercial w/ bob roarman, a song , meat sizzling on a grill, copper wire, a cut on your hand .....

I wonder if something is wrong with my brain that its firing off old neurons just to keep its self alive a bit longer, Like a fish gasping for air in a algae covered pond. Even my dream have no direction, they are mashed blurs of my family, friends, lovers, school and places I have not been to.  Sequences that make no sense no matter how you unwrap them.  I don't remember my dreams any more , I kinda sleep like the dead so I suppose that even a jumbled dream has value.