not just a headache...

The other day I felt as if I was going blind in my right eye. Its
usually an indicator that a migraine is about to happen. Stress? Weather?
Blood pressure? I hate when they happen; my vision collapses in to a tight
tunnel and fuzzy. The pressure starts and just does not stop. I'm some
cases I have started to slur my words.
Usually a good night of sleep in total darkness with 100% silence will
make it degenerate in to a tension headache. My Dr was amazed when I went
in for am update for a specific medication. Its not a pain reliever, but a
vasodialator. It opens up the veins to allow for better blood flow and
relieves internal pressure. I don't want a pain reliever. I can deal with
the pain. I need to keep a clear head with the kids at home. I think he was
impressed that I was avoiding a pain medication like ocy or vicodin from
him.
I grown scared that one day I will have a vein pop in my head. Its
what killed my uncle and I...I just have this fear that that will kill me
too. The loss of brain matter in that way is frightening. To lose who you
are in seconds in horrible. .....Maybe I'm just reading too much in to
another migraine...