turn it down ....

some days I just want to be alone. Today was one of them. All I wanted was
to roll up in a big comforter and stay in bed. I'm tired of being tired.
Maybe get up and have a cup of coffee, watch the news and go back to bed
until the afternoon. wake up and have some Chinese food. Get back on the
sofa and perhaps nap until 3pm. Get up and then decide to catch a movie at
the cheep show. read a horror novel and go back to bed by 9 pm. Its not too
much to ask. Just a day with out having to interact with people.
I almost feel like the old guy from the twilight zone. All he wanted to
to be alone. The a nuke hits and he is alone with time to read, but with
anything there are prices to pay. His was that his thick glasses broke and
he could no longer read......
Maybe its just an overload of sounds from work, telephones, people,
machines with their constant whirring and of course the cars.... I just
want the one quiet day. Its to the point that I drive with out the radio
just to maintain a good noise level....
I know I whine about this about once or twice a year but that all I
really want is the the quiet. Maybe to roam a deserted beach with only the
sound of the sea to keep me company. Me and my internal monogouge....
Perhaps All I need to do is just learn to still my brain and turn the know
down to zero... to go all zen like and stop the internal noises.