Goodbye Nixon

Yesterday I went and put my dog to sleep. The people at the shelter said he was between 4-6 years old and I had him for 6 years. His name is Nixon and all he wanted was love, a place to sleep and occasionally scratched behind the ear. He was a mix of Jack Russel and beagle. 

Its never easy when you have to put a friend down. They become part of the family, the kids love them and I do to. That was the agreement though, to care for your pet from start to the end. It would have been cruel not to do so.  He was losing bladder control and his hips and bones were just creeking. I was painful for him to be picked up and to jump on the sofa. 

I have to say that the Vet place was just great. They treated me with respect and kindness.

Pizza Puff

 

I think that some of the best things to your child is to introduce them to new things. I love to see that spark in their eyes as they enjoy the same think you do. Yesterday I took my son to a little Greek style Gyro stand. He did 't want to go. he wanted a hot dog from home or pizza. I introduced him to a pizza puff. I described it to him as a pizza bite thats HUGE! We ordered it and waited a but to wonderfully deep fry. It came out and he looked at in distain. I cut it open and the smell of sausage and cheese just hit him. I could tell that in the first bite that he was hooked.  I never really liked them and can honestly say that I have maybe had less than 10 in my like, but to see him just enjoy it was great.

Whats in my brain today

This sounds so stupid but I miss good blue cheese. When I was teh cheese buyer at Wholefoods I was in contact with all kinds of wonderful cheeses and paid zero for them. If I needed Reggiano I would simply take a few crumbles that were going to be tossed. I stole nothing . I simply did'nt toss out the flakes and crumbles. I would take home "broken " wedges of world class blue cheeses, roqufort, maytag and assorted blue bries.... Today I had a blue burger from Wendys.... and I know its cheep domestic blue cheese it was very tasty and paired nicly wih bacon.... Not a great post , but today all I could think of was blue cheese. Like some part of my brain just was craving blue cheese and I could not turn it off....

Lost Dreams

     I've been having strange dreams in the last few nights. Dreams of old girlfriends. Dreams that they have been beaten by husbands and boyfriends and are telling me this. Dreams of having dinner with them in old watertowers that have been converted to restrauants in Chicago. Dreams of burgundy bras and massages. Dreams of horses on city streets. Dreams of people watching me through camers and reviewing the pics on iphones. I normally do not dream or rather I have lost my dream patterns that I used to have. When I was younger I would dream and log it all down . Now the remembered dreams are few and far between. Maybe its because I awake so yearly and it breaks up the normal cycle or maybe because I'm just getting old.

   Its rare - I mean super rare that I have a sex dream, but those have been creeping up on my as well. They weird part is that its sex with girls that I do not know at all. White girls maybe latina  that are ... petite, I'd say 5'5 and 120-130 lbs.  Dark hair that is straight and shoulder length.  I do not know any one like that in my life right now. I'm just blaming those dreams in the Spring rut....