Goodbye Nixon

Yesterday I went and put my dog to sleep. The people at the shelter said he was between 4-6 years old and I had him for 6 years. His name is Nixon and all he wanted was love, a place to sleep and occasionally scratched behind the ear. He was a mix of Jack Russel and beagle. 

Its never easy when you have to put a friend down. They become part of the family, the kids love them and I do to. That was the agreement though, to care for your pet from start to the end. It would have been cruel not to do so.  He was losing bladder control and his hips and bones were just creeking. I was painful for him to be picked up and to jump on the sofa. 

I have to say that the Vet place was just great. They treated me with respect and kindness.

Pizza Puff

 

I think that some of the best things to your child is to introduce them to new things. I love to see that spark in their eyes as they enjoy the same think you do. Yesterday I took my son to a little Greek style Gyro stand. He did 't want to go. he wanted a hot dog from home or pizza. I introduced him to a pizza puff. I described it to him as a pizza bite thats HUGE! We ordered it and waited a but to wonderfully deep fry. It came out and he looked at in distain. I cut it open and the smell of sausage and cheese just hit him. I could tell that in the first bite that he was hooked.  I never really liked them and can honestly say that I have maybe had less than 10 in my like, but to see him just enjoy it was great.

Whats in my brain today

This sounds so stupid but I miss good blue cheese. When I was teh cheese buyer at Wholefoods I was in contact with all kinds of wonderful cheeses and paid zero for them. If I needed Reggiano I would simply take a few crumbles that were going to be tossed. I stole nothing . I simply did'nt toss out the flakes and crumbles. I would take home "broken " wedges of world class blue cheeses, roqufort, maytag and assorted blue bries.... Today I had a blue burger from Wendys.... and I know its cheep domestic blue cheese it was very tasty and paired nicly wih bacon.... Not a great post , but today all I could think of was blue cheese. Like some part of my brain just was craving blue cheese and I could not turn it off....

Lost Dreams

     I've been having strange dreams in the last few nights. Dreams of old girlfriends. Dreams that they have been beaten by husbands and boyfriends and are telling me this. Dreams of having dinner with them in old watertowers that have been converted to restrauants in Chicago. Dreams of burgundy bras and massages. Dreams of horses on city streets. Dreams of people watching me through camers and reviewing the pics on iphones. I normally do not dream or rather I have lost my dream patterns that I used to have. When I was younger I would dream and log it all down . Now the remembered dreams are few and far between. Maybe its because I awake so yearly and it breaks up the normal cycle or maybe because I'm just getting old.

   Its rare - I mean super rare that I have a sex dream, but those have been creeping up on my as well. They weird part is that its sex with girls that I do not know at all. White girls maybe latina  that are ... petite, I'd say 5'5 and 120-130 lbs.  Dark hair that is straight and shoulder length.  I do not know any one like that in my life right now. I'm just blaming those dreams in the Spring rut....

  

voices

   I ts been years since I heard voices. When I was in college I would often hear whispering and a chatting before I dozed off. If I open my eyes the voices would stop. It seemed like ghosts in the dark, but most likely it was a pre - dream.  Once I farted so loud that I yelled out "Whose there" to an empty room.  I have woke my self up to my own yelling because of a scary dream. That's always creepy because at time you can hear your own voice in the dream trying to yell with no volume. Again this was years ago and far between....

 

   Last night I was in a dream if some kind. Nothing clear or bad , but I heard an outside voice clearly say "damn it" - I guess I assumed it was my wife and I yelled out "What?". The very weird part is that no one was in the room. My wife had gone to work and only me and the dogs were in bed. The dogs were stone cold passed out. So was it a dream? Ghost voice? - I'm guessing it was just a voices in the dark.

 

 

Peace.

to friends.

As I get older my recovery time gets longer and longer. Last night I went out to celebrate St Pattys at a local bar. I had , I would say 2 pitchers of green beer and wings. Granted I woke up that morning at 5:20 am and went to bed a touch liquored at 2am.  It was kind of a rough start. As my mom would say - crudo or a bit raw.

It was a good time to tip back a few with a friend and just remind your self how lucky you are in friends.  Laughs and tears are best shared with friends.  Friends let you be you even more so than family... you don't have to play a role (dad, husband, brother, son). A friend can let you be you. You can tell a story of a deaf stripper and a blue dildo to friend not to your wife.... Peace

BTW have a monkey.

st pats

In honor of St. Pat's day, Trapper Rob's ode to Broadway,

"Oh Donny Rose, the pipes, the pipes are calling

From glen to glen, and down the mountain side

The summer's gone, and all the flowers are dying

'Tis you, 'tis you must go and I must bide.

But come ye back when summer's in the meadow

Or when the valley's hushed and white with snow

'Tis I'll be there in sunshine or in shadow

Oh Donny Rose, oh Donny Rose, I love you so."

(adaptation of Frederick Weatherly's original lyrics in accordance with all Federal, State and local regulations)

dreams

I don't know where these dreams come from. Perhaps its from too much TV or not enough.... I drempt of bed bugs. The lived in the corners of the mattresses, but they were large like those hissing cckroaches. The mattress was see through , maybe plastic, but you could see the innerworkings easily. The springs wires and the bugs.
-- dreams are the only thing that you truly own.... and I don;t think i like mine.

post Oscar awards

I usually watch the Awards every year. This year I got caught up in watching Daybreakers. It was a dog of a vampire movie, but entertaining.  I did catch the last hour or so of the Awards. I saw the actor, actress and movie it self. I cant say that I agree with Sandra as the best actress, but I do agree with director and movie.

   What separates me from most of the peolpe at work is they do not understand the difference between a good movie and entertaining movie. One guy was raving about Avatar not winning. I sat him down and explained that Avatar had great effect, but it was a hollow movie. Its a repeated story from ferngully, Pocahontas, matrix and dances with wolves. Then he ranted about star trek beating it with make up, I then explained that 90% of avatar was CGI, not make up in the real sense.

   While The Hurt locker was not a widely seen movie on a subject that is not well liked , it was the best movie for that year.

There is a difference between enjoyed and good.

 

I want to ..... 2010

• lose weight
• learn something new
• read more
• watch more movies
• learn a third language
• dig that damn stump out of my yard
• re-start the motorcycle
• make a feast for my friends
• go out on a bender
• see more of my friends
• spend more time with my kids
• go camping
• more fishing
• brew some beer
• ride my bicycle more - 200-300 miles
• make my own wooden arrows
• learn how to make a longbow
• just take a day and sit without noise
• a new tattoo
• spend more time w/ the church
• get healthier
• take a few ME days off
• grill more in the summer
• get through life without hurting any one
• take the kids to a SOX game
• more vegetables
• learn to relish alone time
• go shoot more (bow)
• get a FOID card
• buy a shotgun/muzzleloader/lever action rifle
• go hunting
• make costumes for the kids
• be comfortable in my own skin
• connect with old friends
• go on a trip/actually take vacation time
• write more
• kill a hobo with my bare hands

These are in no particular order or need to do any, but  off the top of my head things that I would like to do in the upcoming year.

Peace