more video monkey ..

glad you ladies liked it...

stupid stupid stupid

ok hows this for stupid. Today in chicago it was 50 degrees. I was going to take the motorcycle out .I just happend to open a letter from the insurance saying my policy for the bike was cancelled because I forgot to pay. The damn thing is billed seperately from the auto insurance. I always thought it was included (I pay the insurance online) so I never bothered to look. They tried to call me but since I no longer have a land line phone they never reached me (I only use a cell line). The cars and house are still good but I might have to get new cycle insurance (they will let me know tomorrow ) Arrrrg , now nowing my luck I will not have another warm day to ride until march/april.


i'm trying somthing new.... some video monkeys

Sorry and the metal monkey..

the last few posts ive just been ranting . I'm sorry but I've needed to just dump things here. I refuse to dump my bad work/life /personal day in front of the kids. This blog helps me keep me sane and keeps the negitive out of there lives. So, (Scarlet and other faithfull readers !!) for listening me rant about the boring world of dumb asses and car sales you get a monkey .... (ok it is a dead one)

BTW. Scarlet , thank you for sharing about your grand mother. I will also say a prayer for her as well. ((LOL old balls and saggy boobs.....) )

fuck you ...

ever just want to punch some on in the face? todat I transfered in a car for a family that wanted this car. I showed them what the price range of the car was going to be... between $540 and $630 per month (she was ok with the monthly payment then) . After we ran a credit check and the banks came up with their rate it was at $570. SHe looks at me square in the eye and says "thats too much" SO I respond " She should not be a suprise $570 is between $540 and $630, thats the ranne we showed you before we transfered the car. She wanted the payment to be 470 , sure if you put down another 5 grand..... what the fuck..... a fucking wate of my whole day getting the car - running credit -- and being nice to their fucking kids. (did I tell you I hate kids at work? did i?) -- Her husband looked embarassed . I said well when you come up with 5 grand then your payment will be where you want them. No I will not hold this car until you make up your mind (and in secret I will try to sell it out from under you) ---- the only nice part about the work day is that I had taco bell for lunch. Its a dirty little secret but I actually enjoy a taco supreme from the bell about once a month......

not sure....

i am just ranting down some thought that need to come out .. sorry if it makes no sense.


after thanksgiving i tried somthing. i would only contact people that contacted me first and the only through the same media that I was contacted in. in the last month and a half I have only made very few phone calles outside of family and work. Today I was contacted by my uncle from texas to let me know that my aunt (his sister ((my moms sister )) is dying of cancer. Shes fought a long time with it .. for 20 years. in that time it has claimed both her breasts and caused her bones so brittle that she one broke both legs. The chemo and radiation caused this. now it had finally caught up with her and had spread in to her throat and lymph glands. Last night she was not expected to live. She did. She is supposed to go to hospice today. I spkoe with my mom tonight. its been a long time since we had spoken for any length of time. Afterward my dad thanked me for helping my mom on what is comming in the next few days. ----- sometimes i wonder how i became the person that the family comes to when in trouble. Is because i keep my self cold inside. because i can and have shut things down so i can do what needs to be done? i had to be the one to mak e arrange ments for my uncle 5 years ago. i hadd to pick out the casket and be there.I was the last one to say good bye at the funeral home. I kept his ashes. .... I did not let my self cry until i was alone... im not sad. i kinda dont know how to feel right now. im tired but i cant sleep. i had a long hard day at work then they spring this on me. now today i find out that another uncle has prostate cancer and parkinsins (sp?). great just fucking great. today I felt like a whore at work. I had to deal with a person that I just hated. some dick from NJ. spanish and gypsy perhaps. I could smel a scam happening but I could not figure iut where. but I smiled at his stupid jokes and drve him to his moms for downpayment money-- sure I was paid well for it but I hated this guy .... maybe I just hate mexicans ( now stop !!! ) before you yell at me I am Mexican , but i was born here. I guess I am starting to hate helping people who cant speak english , who dont have a licence or SS # to run credit. I dont know -- my dad and mom made sure that I spoke english and spoke it well. It cost me my accent, when I speak spanish I have NO accent. It sounds tecnically correct , but very anglo. kinda weird to explain. listen I know im spouting off in all directions but I just needed to empty my head and get some thoughts in some order.

dreams

I've been having dreams in the last few days about a woman. Now I dream all the time and almost always in color with lots of details. These last few dreams almost seem like a b/w film. The image seems to skip. I do not know who she is , but she is very attractive and knows me. It is not a sexual dream (sadly I do not have those....) but a dream thats been in my head a few times the past week or so...

Monkey

Wow I have been hyper busy at work..... Long days and nights. So to be fair I owe you one monkey. yea yea yea Christmas is over, but how often do you get a Christmas monkey???
Side note.......Its Funny how years seperate people. What I mean by that is that at work I was joking aroung about jerking off. This does not phase me at all. Some of the guys seemed gun shy even about joking about this.. I told them on a good day if no one is home I walk around do laundry , change the oil in the car and cut the lawn all the while yanking on my cock. ..... I'm officially tired Im off to bed.

SE7EN......

1. Seven things to do before I die
Dance at each of my sons weddings
Actually buy a Harley Davidson
See all 50 states
Rebuild a Motorcycle
Go see the Pyramids
Finish my degree
learn to like my self

2. Seven things I cannot do
Cry
appologize
feel guilt
swim
come back to God
feel comfortable in my skin
forgive

3. Seven things that attract me to women
smiles
eyes
small laughs
smarts
soft touch
kisses
ability to make me laugh ((and you all thought it was all about ASS and boobs...))

4. Seven things I say most often

OK, so there I was...
Fucking Ja-moke
Ok, but that will cost ya..
Your fucking kidding me ....
No
I'd eat that pie.../I'd ride that pony...
I love you boy. (I say it to each of my boys every night while they sleep)

5. Seven books (or series) that I love
Vampire$
The Dead
The walking dead
Hellblazer
Neuromancer
Freak like me
Dune

6. Seven movies I watch over and over again (or would if I had time)
Dawn of the dead (new version)
Jaws
Empire strikes back
Pi
War of the worlds (old version)
The day the earth stood still
Wizard of oz

7. Four (how pathetic) people I want to join in, too
Scarlet
None available
Dana
Girl of summer

Happy New Year.....

Well its 2006. 2005 was not too bad... Not the best year ever but all in all it went ok. There's some things I wanted to do in '05 that I just did not get done. I want to get them done in 2006. Are there things that you want to do this year? Here are my top 10.

1. Buy new A/C for the house. (old one went out in Oct.)
2. Tint car windows... Not a need just a want..
3. Remote start on car ... again just a want
4 Get a new tattoo ... Just need to find the right one....
5. actually finish the walls in basement (??? my dad wants to do this one)
6. Get back to weightlifting (shoulders done hurt any more)
7. ride motorcycle down state
8. finish motorcycle engine class.
9. walk my boy to kindergarden
10. go to the movies more.
11. get back to shooting the bow and arrow
12. get my FOID card again
13. Take some time off of work.
14. Look in to online universities (work pays for em)
15. Drop body fat index.... (not necessarily weight)
16. Reseed the entire lawn (with a dog and kids may not ever happen)
17. I'll say it only this one time... Go to a Cubs game (never been to one)
19. get snipped?? (been on the agenda for awhile.....)
20. Write down all my mis adventures....

OK that's 20 instead of just 10 but with a whole year in front of you I cant quite think. I know I will look up and it will be march then September then 2007. It seems that years get faster and faster the older I get... Any how I hope that 2006 will be better than 2005 for every one....