doors and windows...

I sat outside yesterday and closed my eyes. Somewhere between sleep and day
dreams parts of my life replayed. High school, college, girls that I dated
and my own life right now. I have not seen the movie "sliding doors" but
every ones life if the cumulation of events. Some in your control and many
that are not. Things that our parents do, friends decide on and your own
silly choices. The last beer, the first kiss, the turn right or left, did
you make the yellow light or stop at the red?
Don't take this the wrong way but I was looking at the would of's the
should of's with a 20/20 rear view vision. I love my kids and my family
but could bit be a better life? Yes. Could it have been worse? Yes. The
grass is greener but for whom? I have a friend that is successful but he
would trade it to have a healthier father or child. Sorry I was tired and
the evening Sun was out while my mind drifted from thought to thought. I
viewed my life if I had married a different woman. If I did not have kids?
Had finished college? I wonder if the women I was with wonder about me? I
should have married him. Never left him. Gone out with him.
Everyone does it. There was a great film I saw that dealt with this ... The
Last temptation of Christ. A great film if you have a chance.
Hey I'm sorry I've been such a downer in the last few posts. My mind has
been elsewhere. Thanks for reading. Peace.