Well I did it. I unplugged from the world, I disconnected my Internet. I took some time and tallied up what I did on line vs what I need to do online. I decided that just sitting there and tapping "stumble upon" button while watching TV was not the greatest use on the Internet. I did DL movies and songs, but I think this will keep me out of trouble as well. I got a nasty letter from Comcast for trying to download the "Six million dollar man" w/ Bigfoot for a friend. I still have access to the internet and emails when I need them. I still keep up with the news and Internet sites that I need to visit. I have actually changed my email to a GMAIL account its universal and has a ton of space and better yet its free.
Its funny dropping the internet is like breaking an addiction. You want to just turn it on and sit. You want to flick a switch and do nothing important. You don't mind just sitting with the monitor flickering in from of you. Its more seductive than TV because you control it or at least it lets you think you control it. The internet is fun but what am I actually drawing from it? As of right now , not too much. Some chuckles but really a whole lot of nothing that can wait til morning. When the kids get a touch older I may switch back, but right now they don't need it.
Just by cutting the Internet off I am in bed close to 1-2 hours earlier. I now drop off after Family guy or Futurama. The bad part is that I am up earlier as well. My dreams have been all funky as of late. I can't put my finger on it but they are not healthy. Dreams of Dr's and wires in my head. Its all in flashes of memory so I can't get in to detail. I'm sleeping uneasy.
I've been doing well in my eating not so well in my photo shoots of my food. I have to make more of an effort to have the camera on the table and take it with to work with me. I know it has helped. I've been avoiding fast food for a couple of weeks now. I did have a eggamuffin last week. Part of me craves fries from Micky D's. I know its that sugar , salt and fat. I can almost taste the fry in catsup loaded w/ salt. Thats another addiction that has to be controlled.
I control several addictions well; Smoking - 1 smoke per day. Drinking - 1 alcoholic beverage with a meal. Soda- Diet soda. Fast foods- only when absolutely necessary. I still am addicted to flesh. That is a hard addiction to keep under wraps. Its so easy to watch. Ladies always look good. A quick glance of cleavage, a smile,lips or leg peeking out from under a skirt. This is an addiction that will be the end of me if I let it. I always think how easy it would be to talk to some one in to going out for a drink. For a quick lunch. For a ...... all it take is a weak moment on either side.
Everyone has an addiction;some may not realize what they are addicted to. A cup of coffee in the AM, chocolate, certain lotions, textures, excitement and adrenaline, certain smells and these are normal addictions. Others addictions are as wild as your imagination allows. Sometimes once you have something it stays with you. The thoughts linger on your next fix. When and where. How much starts to matter less and less.
OK thats about it. I have to grab a cup of coffee. Peace.
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