What was that again?

I feel like I'm going insane..... I swear for the last three days I have
forgotten what day it was. Sunday? Monday Saturday? I'm starting to lose
it. This is my second biggest fear; Insanity. I could deal with OCD and
small things like that. But to lose total touch with reality. To lose the
day or year or ones self. I have had nightmares about people doing an
operation on my brain. Losing who I am with the stroke of a knife blade. A
lobotomy is 100% frightening to me. Like cutting firm
jelly.....**SHIVERS**. My grandmother had Alzheimer's and lost it. It was
hard meeting her. I was 24 or so when I went down to Mexico to finally meet
her. My Uncle told me that she did remember my dad at all (hes the youngest
of his family). It was horrible to see that. To know that my dad was
completely forgotten by his own mother. My dad was used to it , he knew
about her illness for 25+ years. A slow erasure of memories, of the past.
Good things and bad. Some people fear Cancer ,some fear the dark, some even
fear clowns; I fear my own insanity.